My best friend, Jen, and I have recently discussed the fact that blogs only showcase the "perfect" of people's lives, which is understandable and justifiable because who wants to put their problems out there for all to see? Well, today, apparantly I DO!
Today I hate:
-PhD programs
-Pennsylvania
-That the Deans are still out of town
-That the Deans are moving in December
-That the Souza's moved
-Feeling like a single parent
-Feeling like an inadequate parent
-All things "home-makey" -- so NOT my forte
-Being students for THE NEXT FOUR YEARS
-My back that always hurts
-Feeling homesick
-Moving
-Landlords
-Everything about renting
-Cigarette smoke
-Car Seats
-Stubborn baby weight
-Not being able to NOT care what others think or compare myself to others
-Never feeling caught up
-AND NOW, the reason for all this hating today, I HATE PMS (sorry to my boy blog readers who now feel a bit uncomfortable...if I have any boy blog readers).
If you're lucky enough to be reading this, then good for you, 'cause I'll probably be really embarrassed by it tomorrow and will erase it.
Sounds like I need to go play the piano, read my scriptures, and pray for a very long, long, time. Someone please make me feel better and tell me you have days like this too?
17 comments:
Oh Coliape... don't be sad! I do have days like this, too! Sometimes it just seems like everything is crappy. But then, thankfully, there are days when everything seems wonderful, and those make up for the bad ones. You know, the bad days help us really appreciate the good ones. Anyway, on a side note, thanks for not complaining about your personal problems all the time... because I think it's really lame and tactless when people regularly use their public information-sharing technology for that purpose!
Bekah--this quote has gotten me through a few "bad days" the last few months. Love ya Mindy
Recognize that the joy of motherhood comes in moments. There will be hard times and frustrating times. But amid the challenges, there are shining moments of joy and satisfaction.
M. Russell Ballard
Bekah- I'm so with you today hun. More than anything I feel bloated and gross (but mostly just pregnant) and am definitely a single parent, have been since May and will be until November. So, hang in there and count your blessings that Brad does get to come home at night and the blessing of being able to have children at all. That is what I have to do.....I'll keep you in my prayers.
My confession... I had about 4 different blog ideas today (all of which I was going to complain about different aspects of my life). Funny enough, I can't even remember one right now. If it makes you feel any better, my husband is still in school too and will be for 5 more years and I'm sorry that it has been a crappy day. I think that life seems really manageable until you throw PMS or pregnancy hormones into the mix and it suddenly seems unbearable. Love ya. We should talk sometime.
You know, sometimes it just good to complain about all of the bad things...cause let's face it, no life is as perfect as a blog might lead you to believe. Ha ha! Anyway, I'm sorry that it has been one of those days or weeks...no fun! Hopefully, it gets a little better (as much as it can!)
xoxo
Becca
I SO have those days!!! :)
I was just about to do my post about my bad day, so there must be something going around! I'm sorry you had a crappy day! I truly related to everything you said you hated (well maybe not the PHD and Pennsylvania). I don't know if misery really loves company, but you've got it!
Hooray for a non-picture-perfect blog post. I have those days and hate them. I think what gets me is knowing that this is what I want (being home with kids, supporting Adam in school, etc.) so why is it so hard sometimes? I wish we all lived next door but I guess that would make it too easy!
oh man, i just had one of those days yesterday. Pretty sure i cried for 24 hours straight. not even kidding. But i think mine is stupid birth control. I feel pretty crazy these days :( And i may only be 4 hours away but i'm homesick all the time... All i can say is i sure do love you and thank you so much for being so very honest!!!!! You are amazing!~!!!!
hahaha, you want something to make you feel better? How about a funny story? Well, last week whilst in China I woke up at 2:30am with a turn of the stomach. I was in the bathroom all night with food poisoning! hahaha, funny I know. Well, if you’ve ever been in China you’d know what the toilets were like (a literal hole in the ground). I lost 5lbs AND my pride all in a few hours. I missed the Olympics, and the sprinkles on this sundae, I had PMS…Moral of the story: some days can be crappy (excuse the pun).
Love ya!
Oh Bekah! Of course everyone has days like that! I love your courage and honesty that you can admit it! Maybe one of these days you will read my post of things I hate! I love ya-just remember the good days!
Oh Bek sorry you were having a hard day. I think that we are in a hard stage of life- building our lives (supporting our hubbies in building their careers) and it is hard. They are gone a lot. It gets lonely. Being a Mom is not always the easiest thing! Doesn't mean we're not grateful for what we have, but I think everyone has to have breakdowns and get it all out every once in a while! I really miss ya though, and am always here!
Yes, everyday I feel like this, and I usuallly can't blame it on PMS. It's hard to go "home" after being in your real "home" for so long, and then missing it so bad. I also am wondering when I will ever get caught up with all the little things, it seems like I do, that amount to looking like I've done nothing all day. for example, wipe bums, close the baby gate, open the baby gate to put laundry in, get the boys clothes on, make bottles, water the plants, I'm always stopping to do some little mundane task and feel like I never get anything BIG done. I feel like I'm being smothered. Really sometimes you just need to vent, and it's ok every once in a while. I think thats why I haven't posted for so long, every thing seems so mundane. Love ya, thanks for hearing me vent!!!
yes and I love you
DAD
Oh my darling daughter, I love it when we dare to be real...I wish I were there to hug and snuggle you. I'm sorry I was sick while you were here and we didn't get to go do pedicures and other fun stuff. But just to let you know, your dad has been checking airline tickets for Christmas time to go to Phillie!!!!! Wouldn't that be great?!!!
Hi Bekah!
Ok, so I have NO phone service--my landline doesn't work and I don't get cell reception in the house. Can you imagine how I feel about this? Not good. Also, one of my two bathrooms has a leaky toilet, it really is downsizing to go from three bathrooms down to one. Last of all, although the people are SOOOOOOO nice, (get ready for something rude), the south is really a different place where many members of the church homeschool, spank their noisy toddlers in the lobby of the church and other unmentionables I just can't wrap my head around. EVERYONE has days like this and now that I am making Gabe late for soccer, I better sign off!
I know what you mean, blogs do seem a little unreal. We all have days like this! And yeah for you for posting it. It helps me to know you a little better and make me feel more real. :) I am sorry you are losing the Deans! They really are great, aren't they? And so are you! Thanks for being great! That soup was yum and I want the recipe! I can totally relate to all that stuff you just posted about!
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